Just want to be Loved?

Well I just realized a lot today.  I got off the phone with my step mom just a little bit ago.  My dad and her are getting a divorce.  And it hurts.  As I talked with my step mom on the phone and asked how she was doing, she shared through her tears all that she is feeling.  I could feel her pain.  She said she always wants to be a part of my life.  I realized how much I care for her when I told her that I want to continue to be a part of her life as well, and that I will always love her.  Through the years she had become someone who I let into my heart, and I loved her.  After we hung up the phone, I just wept.  Another person in and out of my life.  Not just another person though, but a parent, a loving mother figure, someone to look up to.  And throughout my life, outside of my control people have come and gone, mother figures, father figures, people to look up to.  The relationships that are supposed to be the stabilizing relationships in my life have been the ones that have left.  I have gotten close to these different people in my life, and it has hurt.  I think that is why I don’t like saying bye to people that I grow close to, because I have had to do it too many times in my life.  The people who have meant the most have left.  Sometimes I have been too young to understand.  When I was young I would only get to see my dad once every two weeks.  My dad tells me stories about when he would drop me off at my mom’s house after my weekend of visiting him. And I would just cling to him, begging him not to leave.  He would hold me and how he would try and stay strong for me, but he couldn’t help from just crying too. As he drove away, he would watch me cry as I stared out the window watching him leave, and it would break his heart.  

These situations have left long lasting scars and still affect my life and relationships today.  But I feel that I am not the only one who has felt pain like this.  All over the world divorce happens.  I realized today that there is “someone” in my life that will never leave me and will never forsake me.  That no matter what this “someone” will always love me and never hurt me.  This “someone” actually loves me even when I don’t love back.  This someone knows all my faults, and just loves me.  This someone doesn’t just give me broken promises, or empty words about love, but actually died to prove true love to me.  This “someone” is Jesus. 

This is THE love that comes from God, the God who sent His one and only Son Jesus Christ to die as an act of love.   Romans 5:8 says that “while we were still sinners, Jesus Christ died for us.”  This blows me away that God could know all my sin, and still love me.  It is that love that changed my life 6 years ago

And only Jesus gives a type of love that can be trusted to never fail.  I know of the reality of Jesus’ love because I am experiencing this love.  It is a radical love that is actually changing me from the inside out.  As I experience this love I want to give it away to others, because it is so good.

Gods love for you is not based on how good or bad you are.  God just loves you. And he The Bible is really one giant love letter from God saying “I love you, do you love me, check yes or no.”   How will you respond to God’s love?